Thursday, November 26, 2009

I stayed up until 3:30 a.m. keeping busy. Cleaning, prepping and entering a few sweepstakes. Hoping that I could and would just fall into a deep, dark sleep for at least a few hours so I could forget. But NO, 5:30 a.m and Lissa's lock box breaks open and the flood of tears began. We should be having coffee right now. Sneaking off to Kmart. It was our special one on one time. Just you and I, Dad. Just like Black Friday was my time with Little Sissy, aka Baby Brat. Those days are no more.Everyday is a struggle to find a new kind of normal. A twist on an old tradition. This year it is ham and some kind of roast that mom is making that I think is suppose to be like prime rib. We'll see how that turns out. Of course the homemade mac-n-cheese is still in. Some things will never change. Bro and his family will be out of town. So that bums me out. However we will do our best to play some games and stay competitive just like you would want us to.
Hey, we are survivors. We are winners.
I just want to know...Why, oh why did you both have to go?
Two of God's most precious gifts in my life? When will the pain of your absence subside? if ever?
I will be forever grateful for all of the love that you gave me and carry and it with me forever.
However there will also be a 2 holes in my heart,
just like the 2 empty place settings at the table reserved just for you both.
All my love,
Big Sissy


Snap said...


Thinking of you and wishing you and yours a Happy Thanksgiving.

mom2anutball said...

I hope you had a good Thanksgiving. This was such a sweet post.